Last night i had the most amazing dream, it woke me up feeling very happy and satisfied, it was most likely to be a small reminder of what i want out of my life in the near future to keep me motivated in what i have to do now
I've been meaning to update for .....forever!!! I have a new mobile number, if you havent got it and want it you'll need to get hold of me lol!! im so funny.... and ive had a new email address for ages...and were moving from newport to cardiff on the weekend - yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate house moves though, they are so stressful to say the least! but it's a big HOUSE!!!!!!
I have pictures to upload on here too, but i really dont have the patience to do it right now!
Me and R or...R and I lol came to an understanding recently.....just because you put yourself in someone elses shoes doesnt mean you are still seeing things from that persons point of view, you are simply wearing their shoe's as yo would wear them not as they would...deep huh...imagine this conversation rather drunk!! lol it's answered a lot of our arguments
The other weekend RD kindly invited to stay at her house overnight, so i wasnt feeling isolated here, i had a great time, her little girl is lush, i mean seriosuly, she has all the qualities of the cutest of cutest little girls but she isnt that, all at the same time, she has a very short fuse and when frustrated (over the smallest things) blows up SO SO fast! for me this is what made her so special,it's not the brattishness of a small child, or the temper tantrums(which i'm sure she does have) but it's her personality she also calls me aunty, mainly because it's usualy her aunty who visits, and RD told me that when she woke up in the night she called for me, aw bless, i showed her how to headbang to pink lol and high fives, i got to watch pippin in the morning with her too!
Me and RD stayed up till the early hours stone cold sober sharing so much of ourselves, i think i learnt a lot that night, not only about RD but myself too, she is such a ...not brave...brave is...not right, you can be brave when there's a spider in the room! more courageous, RD i belive is the most courageous person i have ever met, in relation to my own life, there are many things that have been left and put aside by myself, things that are now just things, not even aknowledged enough to become a fact, others that i know i hide from.
but we had a few giggles and her sofa...oh my god!!!....LUSH!!!
Being here is making me miss R a lot, maybe it's more to do with being closer to her home, it could could be the country air!!! or it could be just that i am missing her a hell of a lot more...in every way possible!!