Well fathers day is fast approaching, the day means little to me except mostly...hurt? maybe hurt is too strong a word, i dont care enough to hurt, but dissapointed I am.
I look at R's dad and how good he is, he does so much for all of them, even for me, R was telling me how he coached various sports teams she was in as a child/teenager and he would drop everything in a heartbeat if he had to - now compare that to my biological father, I saw him probablly less than 5 times (and thats being generous) before the age of 27? ive had one birthday present, one card, no christmas', he's never been there to protect me, save me from harm, he's never been there to pick up the pieces, or guide me in anyway thats not for his own selfish reasons.
Even when we did meet up, his main concern was his money, if he'd realised im not like him in that area, maybe we would still be in contact, who knows, i spent my entire life wanting to know where i came from, what charachteristics and attributes i gained from him, he played games, thought i was stupid, and then had the cheek to call me a bastard child because there was no DNA test and that i was after his money- not before throwing my sexuality in my face. thats not a 'dad'

I'm greatful because my mum raised me different, I dont play silly games, I am who I am, i have my own mind, and i refuse to jump on command, she also taught me to be genuine, im not a money grabber or can only focus on gaining cash- thats obvious by how long its taken me to get my life into order. And at the end of the day...my mum made a damn good job of bringing us up, and my mum has close contact with all of her children, unlike my sperm donor who has had disputes with 3 out of his 4 children and STILL hasnt apologised and sorted it.

Happy Parent day mum :) xxxx

Anyway now thats off of my chest, only half a week left before R is in llanelli with me- yay!!

I'm currently waiting for my bread to raise, ive never made bread before- if its anything like my cake making, the bread is likely to be solid!!!!!! haha oh well! R will still eat it lol she always does.